I usually don't post on here because I feel like I'm interrupting conversations, but what you said caught my attention.. Where you said I felt the same way last night. It was the worst I had felt in months. All I wanted to do was hurt myself to make sure I wasn't imagining. I'm sorry, I know it's hard, but all I can really say is what others have said and If it gets to where you want to si, where you're about to, just put yourself where ever you can where you can't do it. I locked myself in a room for three hours to make sure I had control over myself..