Hi, I'm new here. I posted on the grieving topics earlier tonite. I think I know some of the pain you are experiencing, my son died of a self-inflicted gunshot to his head, 2 years ago now. I pray all the time for contact from him. Have you thought that maybe he came to you that morning and breakfast was a way of him caring for you? Maybe saying that all was well between you, even though you argued, and he was showing you he loved you?
I hope to hear more from you, I do know you are in turmoil. I too feel like just screaming and screaming, till I can't anymore. But I can't, I'm too old, people would call the police and I can't be hauled off to jail...
Let me know how you are, O.K.?