Thanks Hankster <3 I have woken up with that feeling again....hmmm more like not feeling. I don't care that my husband wont talk to me...it's his loss really, I couldn't give a damn. Some tears came from me last night....I didn't like the feeling and glad it has gone away again. Although it may seem like a bad thing, the place that I am, for the first time in my life, I don't care how ppl look at me and I am no longer scared of being alone. i think being alone is the only place where I will find peace. i don't mean being alone in the physical sense but more in the emotional sense.

Thanks again <3