That's ridiculous, isn't it? Aren't I already in my body? But, she tells me I live in my head too much - that I don't pay attention to my body nor to my surroundings much. She says this is the way to get grounded, to get connected.

I mostly have viewed my body as something I drag around just so my mind can be active and engaged and connected. But learning that I may be emotionally disabled in some way may give credence to her suggestions that I get back into my body.

One thing she does a lot during session is ask me what I'm feeling in my body. At first, that question irritated the hell out of me. I was thinking "who cares about my body? I have thoughts I want to share and whatever feelings are coming forth." So, I barely turned my attention to body and gave her a perfunctory answer. "yeah yeah, my body feels nervous.' and then I'd jump back into my discursive and analytical discussion of 'whatever'.

But after reading books like, "Molecules of Emotion", "The Power of Focusing" and various mindfulness books, it's becoming(slowly) a reality for me that I do need to pay more attention to body and physical surroundings.

But, I find them boring. I wonder who I'll be when I only am mindful of sensory stimulus. Then I'm no more than a piece of biology. I believe my T is right and I'm trying and I do see it helps in calming emotions but part of me still rebels. My 'mind' is still trying to figure it out.