Kindachoatic, AlwaysRejoice, RoadRunner- Many thanks to you all!
I don't call my t cuz Idk why--- She said I could call- she is going on vacation- Part of me does not feel I want to bother her with this me stuff-- like idk why.... ugh-
It is a very good suggestion- it is --- eek this weekend I am to go to my boyfriend's parents- crap I forgot about that-- I am still poking people with sticks cuz I have issues with getting close to them.
my boyfriend is up now though-

- he always helps with talking and getting me to a happier state-- i have not told him of the stuff this morning-- geez i cant believe it is the afternoon for me already--
I will think more on calling T- she told me to "write things down if I have to" for our next appt which is in fricking December.. i understand she has vacation- i am glad she does really but still.. akk