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Irreplaceable · Nov 17, 2011, 03:44 PM

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Originally Posted by whenwillitend

Thank you! I'm so desperate, I even applied at Taco Bell and Domino's. I worked at McDonald's many many years ago, and it was such a nightmare that I swore to myself I'd never do fast food again.

DH has a job interview Friday, for selling insurance. He'd hate that job, but he'll take it if he can, he's desperate too.
We had to buy DH a business outfit for that interview, so we pawned his laptop today.

DH is so depressed, he went to bed at 6pm tonight.
He's also mad at me, because I accepted someone's offer to buy us the food we'll need to make a thanksgiving dinner. I told DH, it's for the kids, they were so happy when I told them we'll actually have a thanksgiving dinner. Sometimes you just have to swallow your pride.

I feel kinda weird, like I'm drowing, but then hope tries to fight its way back up, and then I feel like I'm drowing again, and so on. It's a constant up and down. I don't know who's going to win. Hope or Depression. I'm fighting for hope, with everything I have, but I'm getting weaker.

DH has been talking about downsizing our furry family members. I see his point, but how can I give one of my "babies" away? They are all utd on their shots, and we have food for them, but I am worried if one of them gets sick. My furries make me happy, how can I choose one to "get rid of"?

All those christmas commercials are really getting me down. All those toys, the commercials with excited kids tearing through piles of presents. And knowing that this year, we can't give our kids that. The little guy won't care, he'll be perfectly happy with one new toy, even if it's a used one. But the older one is used to being spoiled on christmas. I know, presents are not what Christmas is about, but for a barely 9 year old, it is.

I just feel like crying tonight.

I'm so sorry to hear this...Please, please please, contact your local office that administers WIC (I'm not sure what they call it where you are from but where I'm from they call it Department of Job & Family Services), to see if they can refer you to any and all agencies/churches/wherever that gives away toys to needy children for Christmas...I know for a fact that Salvation Army gives away toys to children...Again, contact them and they can give you resources/referrals...This breaks my heart to hear this...I know I would be devasted if my daughter didn't have a Christmas....This year for her birthday, we weren't able to spend the amount of money that we normally spend on her and that alone broke my heart...It's a let down to kids...Those sad little faces

I mean, my family is doing the best we can financially. I'm the only one with a 9-5...My child's father/bf is working part time and in school...That takes up a lot of his time during the day so it's mostly me tending to my 6 year old...And soon, my 2 year old nephew will be spending a great deal of the week living with us do to family circumstances...On top of juggling bills to keep everything from being disconnected, helping my daughter with school and everything involved with that and running a household PLUS all of my depression issues, it can be alot...I said all of that to say, there are times where I get my mental break...But I push and push myself because I feel like if I stop, things will fall apart since so much depends on me...But back to you, things will get better...Hang in there for the kids...Focus on trying to make the holidays the best that you can for them...I'm happy to hear that you all will have a thanksgiving and the kids seemed so excited to hear the news! Good luck! Hope you feel better