Hmm, a variety of reasons. She's trying to make me agree to "family sessions" as she says there's a "lack of understanding" so if they were more understanding they might be more supportive. But I don't want them so I want her to stop bringing them up. My parents are too critical opinionated and everything for them to help. Also theres the whole not wanting to disappoint people / be selfish/ trying to convince myself that if I convince everyone that it's fine maybe then I can convince MYSELF and believe it.

I saw her today and she says we're meeting dr rai in 3 weeks for our medication review (she asked if I needed it sooner but I just said no) and that she's going to speak to him beforehand as she thinks we should try a different medication because the Sui thoughts seem to be a side effect of the Prozac...

I'm so stressed out with just everything in general, I wish I had more way to escape from everything for a while and just forget about it all. Nothing hardly seems to be able to totally distract me though. x