thanks kindachaotic! Idk i never noted on her card a fax i could look. But idk. Sigh my boyfriend wasn't feeling well and he's went to work by now. Uhg him not feeling well- That's another upsetting thing though. I keep getting promised he'll go to the clinic but he hasn't. I'm really wondering about him. In all forms. But one i guess intrusive thought- Like why he doesn't want to go- and that i'm his real problem. I keep getting told no, but idk. Just bad thoughts like i'm not his love love :-| eh.
I can't believe i'm still up. I was trying to play Peggle a game i like but still bad thoughts came and went. I keep thinkin about my brother too like i'm worried now- my whole friend thing has made me worry about others that i know have the same struggles as me. Maybe i'll call him tonight to shoot the talk

Maybe i'll call t . I'm sorry i'm scared to. Or idk what it is. Part of me is like i'm not important enough. Or as me with me i always say it could be worse. I would probably say that even at the worse thou :-| Blah. Idk i'm agitated with my animals which is odd for me. :-| i don't abuse them but they piss me off at points i don't like that.
How does a day feel like days or a week and how do some weeks feel like a day. And sadly i probably wont remember much cuz so much in my head. Blah.

Thank you all. I think this will be another post i'll print for my next session. December is far to me right now- but at least it's the first monday in december
Be well all- i'll try to be. probably will be i'm going to try to sleep