Yup... been there. Something that I've recently done is make a list of all the negatives that happened because of my self injury (specifics, not just upsetting others), negative moments that I remember when I really try and think about it, it's so easy just to focus on the good parts though. I wish I could tell you that those moments will go away, but I don't know. I haven't cut for six years now, and I still have many of those moments you described. I wish you the best of luck in hanging in there. Just gotta strain to make it through those really rough patches.