I was having a great day. So I decided to try some self help. My T has a web site and it has links and articles and I was browsing for information on intimacy and relationships and getting over the memories to have a fullfilling relationship.

Wrong thing to do! I freaked out! The whole system is disrupted! Everyone is in total unrest and scared and oh my goodness!

I e-mailed my T, actually Daisy e-mailed him, and said I scared her and wants me to go away

I'm never going to get this. I am never going to get better. I'm bad and no good and what's the use.