I just got out of a 10 year relationship with a girl whom I am deeply in love with. I think about her constantly and wonder if she's ok and my future seems so bleak and hopeless without her... it hurts so much during the day and I try to focus but I cannot. I wish I had more coping resources but unfortunately I don't seem to... I have talked to people in person and I've been to the doctor who prescdribed me some xanax which helps somewhat... the problem is I feel my depression is permanent and it won't go away. I want the pain to go away sso bad but nothing or noone can do that. I just feel helpless and hopeless and scared for the first time in my life.

I"m a fit guy... I workout at the gym and I can take care of myself and I eat a perfect diet. But no matter how much weight I can bench press or squat or no matter how tough I think I am... this pain has brought me to my knees and it's so unbearable... I miss her so much. It hurts