((((Melisssad81)))) hugs to you. However you are feeling is ok. Therapy is a safe place to talk about it. You could even say, " I hate coming in here not knowing what to talk about. My depression is getting worse, there is a lot we could talk about, but I'm not sure I can right now." In fact you just said said exactly, how I and probably how a million other people feel. You took the words out of my mouth. I think, if i said that to my T that i just started seeing, i'd feel better.