I'm not sure if this is exactly in line with your experience, but I often feel like God created me so that other people could look at me and feel better about themselves. I feel like I am the "scourge of the universe". And the pan that didn't fit, etc.? When that happens to me I take it as evidence that the universe has turned itself against me. Crazy? Yes. But our emotions just aren't logical, especially when we are in psychological pain.

^^^^ That is very close to how I feel as well---- I wont go to much into it cuz I don't want to offend any one-- plus for me not being religious- it is irrational and not logical- just like what Secretum has "our emotions just aren't logical, especially when we are in psychological pain. "


I respectfully disagree (quite strongly, actually) with your bf. The little things absolutely do add up. Psychology has found that "daily hassles" adversely affect both physical and psychological health. And psychological distress can be quantified, so life IS math in a way.
^^^ I think he is trying to tell me though that just because a few things go down hill, does not mean it all does-- It just seems like here lately all the **** is rolling down hill to me--- But YES the little things do add up- I agree with that much! thank you

I hope that you feel better soon. December is a long time to wait to see your therapist. Take care of yourself.