Hi, I'm Rhyanna and my husband has been diagnosed as having depression. It started three years ago after he had an accident at work, he crushed his foot and was off work for three months. After that he changed a lot. His depression is like none I ever heard of before. He isn't upset or sad, he's angry. In fact I would go as far as to say the emotion he feels is rage. It's always directed towards me or one of our three children. He isn't violent with us but he does act as though we're the worst people in the wrld and we're just trying to get him down, as though we do things just to wind him up. He behaves as though he hates us, the look in his eyes and the way he spits out the things he says as though it tastes bad speaks volumes.
He isn't always like this, a lot of the time he's very loving but we spend those times being very careful because we never know what might set him off. It's like living with Jeckyll and Hyde.
He has been given different medications and counselling from our GP and they work for a while but nothing has worked for long enough to give me some peace of mind that I can just live life and be happy.
I just really want to know if I'm the only one. I sit here crying an awful lot feeling very alone in the world. I try to do my best to hold everything together for my whole family, including my husband but I'm worn out and don't know what to do.