I don't think there is ever going to be "no ambiguity". I remember once hearing that one aspect of mental health is the ability to tolerate ambiguity. There is so much ambiguity in therapy--do I really like my T or is it just transference, is it just the safe place I like and not really him/her, etc. + umpteen other therapy examples. This is a mirror for the ambiguity in all of our relationships and life. Heck, I'm a scientist, and what we come to know is that we can never really know much with absolute certainty, and we get really comfortable with knowing that because we deal with it every day. We have models and ideas of how things work and approximations but we don't have certainty. (People who aren't scientists often don't get that about science because they have a vision of science as being about facts and absolute certainties.) I think this background has actually helped me tolerate the ambiguity of therapy. My T is from the humanist tradition, like Carl Rogers. We have been on a journey and there has been so much positive there. There are warm and strong feelings we share together that help me on my exploration. I don't have a need to look too directly at all of this right in its eye. I can just bask in it and not have to examine it too closely. It feels really good and it helps me make progress and move closer to achieving my potential. If I looked too directly at it, maybe it would all melt away, or maybe I would be blinded--like staring straight into the sun. So I'd rather just feel the warmth on my skin and benefit from it--and not hurt my eyes.

That's just my way of looking at it. You are casting about to find your own way. Good!