I have learned to love the odd way my mind works. People don't always understand where I am going with things but I usually get them to think. My mind zips around to different things while at the same time it follows the current topic. Most of the time I keep control of the thoughts, holding them inside but sometimes the thoughts pop out at odd intervals. I am afraid they might think I am not paying attention so I deftly bring the conversation back to where we were when I went off on an oddly related tangent. Of course I don't let them see the frightened person who is curled in a dark ball deep inside. Hardly anyone has seen that person. Sometimes I wonder if they sense it. They don't seem to be pounding at my door to spend time with me. On the other hand I have had people defend me because they feel I am the nicest person. I don't know it is all too confusing. Oh well, I don't need all the answers tonight.
Zen

<font color=blue>I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence but, it comes from within. It is there all the time.--Anna Freud