I am so all over the map right now. I found out my grandma broke her hip an may have had a storke. I tried to stop meds, but had to take half of my lamictal today to get past the awful headache I had. So far, no viibryd today though.

I am a horrible person. All I do is cause people pain. Even coming here, I am a nuisance. I have to learn to just keep it to myself, but I can't seem to get there yet.

I deserve the pain of SI. The reminder of the kind of person that I am. I'm not there for anybody. I am selfish.