welcome.....you've come to a good place......sometimes just reading what others are going through can give you a good reference point for your own "problems"........the folks here are articulate and very caring....i don't post very often but i like people to know that there can be a light at the end of the tunnel.......without professional help and meds...i probably wouldn't be here today........i started getting help 10 years ago.......life can be very good...peace...julia