Thank you all.
I will be looking into the councilling and therapy, I'll talk to anyone who'll help get stronger, I will also try to find out about my rights after I leave, I don't want the feelings of loneliness to return when I'm on my own.
And I haven't given much thought to my partner causes problems when I leave him, so I'll look into that.
He's very clever, he's always found ways to keep us, and make me believe I was wrong for wanting to leave, but I'm so excited about being on my own I'm hoping I'll be numb to any mental manipulation.

I don't know how women do it on their own with a child, but I'm amazed at how well they do and how happy they seem. I often wondered if those women are happier than Jewish, catholic and Muslim women who abide by what we're use to, until now I'm reading more and more stories about women who have suffered abuse and depression and left.

Thanks for your helpful tips and words I will start doing lots of research (quietly, lol)