I'm thinking that you girls are on the younger side? I'm 45, I have been cutting since I was 13. The only thing that helps me is, staying busy. I've actually written my Tdoc a letter for next visit telling him, I've bought new blades. I guess Ativan helps me a bit too. Keep in contact with people like yourselves, because, I believe regular people just don't get it. It's like something has to hurt worse, I understand. Sorry you have to go through this. Hope you have a Therapist, I think that's very important.