<font color="blue"> Ok, I’m just some kid and I think I’m depressed or more so just have low self-esteem. I have low self-esteem for one reason because I’m ugly, but I just kind of accepted that and looks don’t last that long anyway. What really bugs me is how much of an idiot I am. I can’t do anything right, the only good grades I get are from participation points and luck on test, and I think this kind of affects me but when I was younger (only bout 3rd grade or so) I was tested for mental retardation and was put in special Ed and was already in speech (I also have a bad speech problem and that really bugs me and I don’t talk much because of that) but I’m in regular classes now. And I read some other sites that say to recover from depression stop saying you hate yourself and stuff but I mean how can you just do that? And I took an IQ test and even that said I had mild retarded, and I try and be more smart, I also read on how to improve your IQ and it says to read books and I do read books, and there not even Dr. Suess. So question, how do I improve my self-esteem to make me feel more intelligent? And I do think about suicide a lot but I’m probably never gonna do it. Thank you. </font>