Welcome to PC dog! I find your post quite easy to read, and well put, inspite of your efforts to put yourself down ( and a few missed punctuation marks )

I doubt anyone here would have suspected any educational problems with you from your post if you hadn't said something.

Breaking bad habits of putting ourself down is not an easy task, but it is doable! There's a thread "sticky" posted at the top of the Psychotherapy Forum (means it stays at the top to find it easily.)

It's 10 common cognitive distortions...the ones that are the most common... things we most often think wrongly that make us feel worse about ourselves.

I hope you like PC, I think you will! Again, welcome!