My brain is on overdrive trying to figure this out. It seems like I need to understand it before I see my T again after her (long) absence.

The attachment is fantasy-based. It has nothing to do with reality. See, there's a hint of something in session that is recognizable. It's a hint of pure safety and pure love. This hint is only a small signpost of what we must have experienced at one time (in the womb?). Or what we know is a possibility of an experience? A deepest yearning.

The fantasy part of it is that pure safety and pure love will not be possible with T. T is a human being like any other. But, since she has been trained to provide what looks like safety and love, of course my emotions respond strongly to that pull.

The goal is to know how to access the safety and love that exists inside of us and T has shown a bit what that looks like. But it is not her as a person that I'm attached to, it's that promise, that invitation to find it within.

Now, of course, I'm talking only about my own feelings and my own experience. I'm not suggesting that T's don't provide much needed help with serious emotional problems. It's just that since I don't think I suffer from serious problems, I need to understand this attachment. Thanks for listening.