If anybody is interested, she canceled on Thursday saying she couldn't make it. I was expecting this anyway so in a way I'm not even bothered about it. Anyway she apologised this time and asked to re-schedule next weekend. I haven't told her how I feel about this as I am not sure if it is appropriate and I don't know if I am over reacting. I'm giving her the benefit of the doubt. I'm trying to evaluate my position here. I'm caught in two different minds. It's difficult making a decision. I want things to happen out for the best. I'm just thinking out loud here so this probably won't make any sense. It's just an internal conflict going through my mind I have to resolve. But in a strange way, things look better. And no! I am not on drugs or drink.