I just had this discussion with T three weeks ago. I know God is there but He doesn't see me. What did I do that was so wrong, why am I so unworthy? I since have been touched by the Spirit and can feel Him again. It was anhedonia blocking out all pleasure and feelings. A safety mechanism that comes when all is going wrong. I don't ask for it, it just happens.

Thank you for the good thoughts,
Songbird