Actually I thought about you the other day as I was walking downtown. Not sure why, but your name came into my mind, "Chappy" is the name of my rocking horse. I never had one, of course, they were "for American kids" and I was "too big" to play on my cousin's, but when I saw some on display in a store window a couple of years ago, and a sign that said they we for sale, I finally got mine. I named him Chappy, because you have to wear chaps to ride a real horse, right, and because that is such a nice friendly British-ish name! CHAP. CHAPPY. I went a little nuts when I got him. ANYWAY - I don't think PC is a place to mope and feel BAD about yourself - I find I feel a lot better about myself since I joined in June. I feel like part of this community, like I really belong SOMEWHERE for once, and that has made me more secure or something IRL. I hope good things happen for you here too.