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Originally Posted by Indie'sOK
Did you ever question your sexuality before this incident? People have the very powerful ability to place ideas about ourselves in our minds that are usually false...if you're truly not gay, why should this be any different? I too questioned my sexuality as a young teen because I mistakenly thought that admiration of other women = sexual attraction to them. It doesn't. I love both my current and former female therapists, and I admire some of the female teachers I've had in the past. I even find them attractive. But I realize that this really is pure respect and admiration rather than sexual attraction. Does any of this sound familiar? Like Lola said, only you can be certain of your sexuality. Don't let this girl get to you - bullying about one's sexuality (gay or straight) is far too common.
Hope this helps  |
I never myself or thought that I might be a lesbian until that girl said anything. But a few months before she said anything, I noticed that I had a lot of thoughts about what it would be like to be with the boys in my class. Since I realized that, I got a quick idea in my head and I started envisioning one of the girls in my class. It was one of those "Don't think of a pink elephant" things I thought, though. I had to force myself to stop thinking about it because it was a bit intrusive. I and forgot completely about it by the time that girl and me started fighting.
Another time I think I had a dream that I was with a girl but I woke up feeling crappy about it. I eventually forgot that, too. It only happened once anyways. I think I tried to kiss my mom for as long as I could when I was little because I saw her and my dad kiss for a long time (just one long kiss). Before all this I sort of shared a lot of dirty jokes with my closest friend. My friends are ones that have forced themselves into my life because I'm to shy to openly meet them and because of that they're all girls. That's all I can think of at the moment.
Oh, and I was talking to my bisexual friend and now since she's bisexual I think that maybe we're a lot alike and that means I am, too. :/ What if next time I see her I think she's cute?
