This is from a website I found and it somewhat describes how I feel:

“It was not really alarming at first, since the change was subtle, but I did notice that my surroundings took on a different tone at certain times: the shadows of nightfall seemed more somber, my mornings were less buoyant, walks in the woods became less zestful, and there was a moment during my working hours in the late afternoon when a kind of panic and anxiety overtook me…” - William Styron, Darkness Visible

I went to a psychologist and he diagnosed me with major depression but that was after going with complaints of anxiety. He barely listened to me. I was suspecting I suffered some sort of breakdown so I seeked help elsewhere. Right now I'm taking nutrional supplements. I have yet to seek therapy. I'm afraid this sense of dread has engraved itself on my subconsious.