Welcome to Psych central manuel. Your not wanting to take anti depressants is well understood here. When we have mental unwellness though, we often have to do the hard work to get well..sometimes that means working through the maze of meds til we find one that works.

Cymbalta is a different drug, imo than the more popular ssri/ssnri available. I hope you will keep trying. What if that darkness can clear, afterall? TC.