Hi Nicoleb2,

You know, around the holidays, pdocs get totally swamped because the holidays are so very stressful on so many of us...I totally relate. But you really need his help. Call every day if you have to until he calls back. Call every morning and if you have to, send faxes so it is in writing...do NOT get ignored.

I don't know why you think that going off your meds right now during this highly stressful and depressing time is a good idea...it is not. Sometimes when we get to this point we start drawing some weird conclusions...changing insurance plans and needing sleep are not good reasons to stop meds. I highly recommend continuing meds until you talk to pdoc and let him make any changes..perhaps he can just change a dosage or time of day that you take a med...but adding in that you are skipping meds is going to make it that much harder to get you the relief you need right now and reduce your anxiety and get you some sleep.

I'm so sorry that this time of year is so very hard for you and about your accident. I hope you will continue to take it slow and use your relaxations techniques and good sleep skills to try and reduce anxiety and get some better sleep patterns going. Sleep can make ALL the difference. It will also help with the SI urges as well as not getting too hungry or too lonely. If you have the tools or whatever...try to get rid of them when you are stronger like in the morning or something so you are even less tempted.

I hope you will continue to try and spend time with the friends and family that you do feel close to and that bring you some happiness. You are definitely in my thoughts..

Hugs,

Wysteria Blue