I have four kids and thanks to numerous things that were out of my contol, we also have fallen on hard times. I didn't want to be on wic and the low cost/free lunch thing either because it makes me feel like a beggar. But I don't want my kids to starve so we did it. I'm going to school and applied everywhere locally for a few months. Took a while but I finally got a job and the hubby just got a new job. We were doing doooo bad for a while. Ugh. The pawnshop people know my husband on a first name basis. It took months of us going through what you did. I finally now have some actually money and can buy things. It will get better. I lived off pb&j so my kids could eat the good stuff for almost a month. I hope you get your job and your husband gets one he will enjoy and make good money with. Keep your head up and know your not alone!!! Goodluck.