Welcome jaybee. You won't believe this, but try and work on it: at your age you have time to make good decisions that will last a lifetime! I agree, find a therapist if you can, and work through what issues you can.

Being on meds for depression is a good thing, and try not to think of it as negative. Sometimes the body just quits making the chemicals we need to live a balanced life. They might need to be adjusted some, especially with the increased stress you are experiencing just now.

Come back and post often. Lots of ppl with good support here.

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