zoo, you are amazing!

In the midst of a huge meltdown one time, I was driving down the road after running an errand, and I was sobbing and saying "I can't DO this! I can't take care of myself!" over and over and then it dawned on me: That is just what I was doing. I WAS taking care of myself. I WAS 'doing this'.
I was taking care and doing in the ways available to me at that time, which included some times of collapsing in grief and letting that happen.

You are getting through this very very hard and painful time one bit at a time.
That you can articulate what is happening so clearly shows a deep understanding of yourself. And I hear the gentleness and the compassion you have for yourself. It is very beautiful, zoo.