I'm not sure "bad" is a good word to use anywhere! I agree with dexter... now that you're an adult, you must make your own decisions. It's unfortunate that you still want someone to take care of you, other than yourself. I wish for you increased confidence that YOU can take care of YOU and making your own decisions for your own life is a GOOD thing!

Decide on some good things for yourself. What is it you want in life? Not just "be happy" but what purpose are you going to find for living? Now you get to decide. Seek out who you are, and why you are here. Try not to run on the idea that it all should happen. The journey is part of the living.

<font color=green>...I can misspeak like the best of us</font color=green>