Hey niko...

I know what you mean about the socializing. As you know, I have moved back to the house I grew up in with my Mom and baby sister. Last Friday my sister and her boyfriend asked me to join them to see a very good local musician. My Mom also asked me to go to church at the church I grew up in. There are still many people there whom I have know all my life. I became so upset at the thought of either that I had to take a Xanax and go off and chill...I could not bear the thought of seeing anyone like that. So, I sat here at home. *Sigh*

These kinds of feelings are a big part of why many of us are not able to lead normal lives, I think. It makes me really sad to think that I'm going to spend the rest of my life hanging out here. I have to learn to overcome this.

Also, I think a lot of people act as your friend did because they cannot or will not deal with what's going on with us, whether valid or not. I also had several lady friends ditch me when they found out about my condition, just like you describe, I just never heard from them again, wouldn't return calls or emails...after two times I just move on...no sense beating a dead horse. It really hurts, too, because I'm they same guy they were having so much fun with...but that's just the way it is.

Good luck with your pdoc...I hope everything goes OK.

DJ