at first I did not feel this way. I started out having no co consciousness (awareness / connection / knowledge that my alters / parts were there. then through therapy I gained a limited amount of co consciousness with a few of my alters / parts. this gave me the ability to feel or know when the alters / parts were in control / know a bit about what was happening while the alters / parts were in control. I still perceived the alters /parts and I to be separate from each other, so again I didnt get this feeling. Once integration of the alters /parts started happening it did indeed sometimes feel like I was the other alters / parts. But after a while my brain switched how it was thinking and perceiving the integrating of feelings / emotions / actions. this caused us (the alter /parts and I ) to fully feel and perceive that were were now one whole person working together as one.

if you have treatment providers (aka physician, therapist, psychiatrist...) talk with them. they can help you over this hurdle / stressful time you are having. There is also a sticky thread around here about "grounding" and there is also a peer lead chat about "grounding" here on psych central that may help you find ways to reground yourself when feeling like this.