I wrote her how i felt, in the most mature way I could manage. This is what she said

"You have no need to worry about getting me in "trouble." I can get in no trouble from NS. You need to take care of yourself and check yourself in to R*****. "

I had said that the answering service needed my name to page the on call person. I said i couldnt talk to them because I didn't want to get her into trouble. Then I said my pnly other option was the local mental ward.

In hind site, I'm not surprised at all. I've had concerns about her schedule and her level of participation in therapy for months. If she had to address it, it would be minimized to the smallest thing possible.

I just so much want her to be who she has said she is. I know this is not repairable without her doing the work on herself and without that, she'll never admit she was wrong. She's trying to minimize this too. Probably I am the only one that flipped out on her, but that's because I see beyond her calm demenor. And I was right. Does that make it my fault? Kind of a self fulfilling prophcy?

This doesnt seem possible to get over.