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I wonder... Should I just let the blackout take over? Should I just let it consume me? I've wondered that and decided for it before. But I have hoped a t or pdoc would be there since medical problems have sometimes come up during a blackout, seizure, fainting etc. Not always but sometimes. Under extreme stress those have happened. While I feel somewhat stable should I just let the darkness take over momentarily so I can find out what happens when it's not extreme stress? Like have my bf stay with me and take care of me while I'm gone? But how do I come back once I've let it take over? I've thought about just giving in and not fighting it any more... It wouldn't take my life, I pray it wouldn't, I could use a vacation but not a forever one. How do you come back once you're gone?
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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