It's ok that you are not Christian, imo... but your thinking that </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
people always have to kill people

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> is NOT accurate.

If what you are talking about that you can't take anymore is something that is bad, then you are right. If things feel out of control but might not really be... then a review of the 10 most common cognitive distortions might help you. (They are posted at the top of the Psychotherapy Forum.)

Saying "I can't " and "Everything" are indicators that you are overwhelmed (and catastrophizing.) I hope you can find a new perspective that will give you the relief you need. TC... hang in there.