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Nov 20, 2011, 09:29 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: Louisianna
Posts: 1,473
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I added a trigger icon because sometimes reading things like these triggers the feelings.***
Dx'd DID about 10 years ago... I get blackouts and always have. Not as intense as lately. Most of the time the blackouts come in phases when life gets to be too much. Only happens as long as I need it. I don't need it now but it's still happening.
I'm also seeming to possibly be developing co consciousness since sometimes I am aware of what is going on when I am not in control. But the blackouts still try to take over too... I'm thinking about letting them
I always struggle with "It is alters or is it something else?" and if I just let the blackout happen, maybe I will know. Tell my boyfriend "I'm going in, I'm not fighting it this time" and having him tell me what happens... I'm afraid... I don't have a t, no one wants to see me yet because I don't have money or insurance. I would prefer to do this with a t but I think it needs to be done. I know some will not feel comfortable telling me to do this, I'm not asking you to. Just wondering if perhaps it's something I should not do and what could possibly be effected by it?
I'm about to just give in to them for once, let them do as they wish... But I'm afraid...Aaahhh
Sorry for posting all the time, it's kinda been a crazy year for me! Thanks for any response 
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