I must apologize for my anger right now.

But, why did this happen to me? Why can't I get it? Why can't I have a normal life like everyone else? I have never experienced LIFE, just my safety version of it. I want to live and don't know how!!!!!!! I try and figure things out and make more of a mess of things. So dumb am I!

T says trust my judgement. Yah, that's always worked well for me. I don't get what judgement is. I don't get what a gut feeling is. Mine are all askew because of the poor foundation of my belief system. Someone please give me a belief system that I can go by.

Ugh! GGGRRR! BooHoo! Scream!! and Scream again!!