((((((((((zoo))))))))))

I understand your shifts and changing your mind. I really do. I've been there with a couple of Ts, not exactly in the circumstances, but I know how much you want to end in a way that will not make it seem like your entire therapy is invalidated. I think your T wants that too. It's okay to want that. Or, if you change your mind after your session Wednesday, that's okay too.

I really hope that you will be able to end in a way that works for you and leaves you with hope and knowledge that you are a good person, and didn't do anything wrong. Your T did say 3 more sessions, though. I kind of wish she'd stick to that because it would mean you can trust what she said. You can still say all you need to in that time--maybe space them out. But if she's changed her mind and you both agree--that's fine too. The important thing is that you and she end on good terms and go over the positives from your therapy--not the negatives. I'm sure there are many.