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Seeing things... They come in a flash... They stay there briefly only long enough for me to be certain that they are there before they dissappear. Corner of my eyes, flashes, colors, things, people, shadows, movement. I feel it. I feel them enter the room. I feel them touch me... I hear things... I feel the earth move all the time...
No questions really... Just a bit bugged from the most recent visuals... I know they are not real.. I know they can not hurt me... But they still worry me. Am I going crazy? Am I becoming dilusional and psychotic? I think so... Do I care? I don't know... I may welcome this new psychotic episode... Tired of running, tired of fighting it, just ready to give in to it...
Ready to just give in with a lot... But what will become of me? Will I become the media type schizophrenic on the street corner yelling at voices in my head? I don't think so... But there is always that chance... But I do not want to continue convincing myself I'm sane... I'm doing ok when the visuals say otherwise... Giving in... Fighting... IDK which way to go anymore...
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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