About four years ago I Moved away from my family and friends for a new job.Things seemed to be going great for the first two years because I had so many new things to discover. Once I really got settled in I noticed that I became very depressed and anxious about almost every aspect in my life. Everyday Things became huge hurtles.Soon I realized that I had a real problem on my hands and that I needed to reach out for help.I went to the doctor and expressed the issue's at hand and started taking medication.The problem was the medication did nothing for my anxiety and I thought perhaps it even made it worse so after taking this medication for a year I gained about 80 pounds and became even more depressed about the excess weight and became very angry with myself and everyone else around me for not understanding what I was going through.So far I have tried at least five different medications with various results never feeling "normal". Most days it seems like my anxiety is running my life I have walked out of meeting's and not showed up for interviews stopped going out with friends and then I get depressed cause I have no social life to speak of it is such a vicious cycle.But oddly enough I have been able to maintain a relationship for the last year with someone who deals with the same depression and anxiety issues that I do I am not sure If this is a good or bad thing as we both have some pretty bad days. But luckily she is very understanding and forgiving when I let my anxiety get the best of me. Relationships seem so hard when you have both anxiety and depression I often feel like a burden and live in constant fear that she will find someone better. Well there is a small sample of my own personal hell I live with everyday.Next week I am going to start seeing a therapist hopefully I can find better ways to deal with everyday life. I don't think I will ever feel "normal" but I want to see how close I can get.