It's great your boyfriend is for using protection, but you should think about what kind of birth control method you would like to use too. There are a lot of options out there and it's good to research all of them and talk to a medical provider about what would work best for you and also which one you would like to use as well.

When you feel that way try and make a list of positive affrimations, that is what my T would have me do, also I kept small things in my bag that reminded me I had people that cared for me or made me feel good, I kept a card from my best friend, a small ameytsht stone and a little stuffed ox. When I started feeling bad I would take a moment, breathe, and look or hold one of the objects. It helped a lot till I learned to repleace negative thoughts with positive thoughts without the objects. Wishing you the best