I'm sorry you are struggling so much with your sexuality MsBunny

Just because someone calls you a lesbian doesn't mean you are one. As humans our sexuality is not defined by others but our own feelings.

I struggled with my sexuality a few years ago too, it was overwhelming and frustrating and I didn't have anyone to talk to because of my current living conditions,

I sat down one day and asked myself this question. I asked myself to pretend what my furture would be like if I was with a man and if I was with a woman. Could I imagine being sexually active with a man or a woman? Could I see myself being a romantic relationship with a man or a woman? Could I see myself having a family with a man or woman?

For me the answer was both, I could share my love and life with either a man or woman, I identify as bisexual and I learned with some support and help from lgbt fourms and the support group here to accept myself and that just because I was bisexual didn't make me bad or wrong, it made me myself and that is okay! There is nothing wrong with being bisexual, asexual, homosexual, any kind of sexual orientation. It just is what it is, what is wrong is the prejudice and hate people face because sometimes people fear what they don't know.

Could you talk to a school guidance counsler about this issue? It sounds like you are really struggling and could use someone to talk to about this issue. Especially if you are thinking about harming yourself. Please use good self care and if you feel you are an immediate danger to yourself seek emergency help at an E.R. or with a sucide hotline.