from your original post...

"But still, I like (love) her but then I also want to end it altogether."

that is normal. well, hopefully...cus I did it with my old therapist.
I think I was in the state of mind of wanting to end it and having a strong connection--for over 2 months. lol. both equally at work! it drove me crazzzy!

Actually, I just figured out--as well, that I have this uncanny ability to not trust a person yet, still open up pandoras box. It's wierd. Like I know if most people don't trust someone they will limit what they say. I can NOT trust some 100% and still share a lot to them. It's almost like I block out that I can't trust them, think about how much I need to get whatever it is off my chest, and start talking anyway. I do it all the time and then eventually regret it!
haha I'm about to do it right now. I'm about to email my T. haha good luck!