I take Geodon 160mg total a day...it works very well for my visual and hearing things...but the thing is....when things are going good and have been for awhile I feel like I dont need it anymore....then slowly I start having paranoia and the other stuff comes back...I KNOW in my head that things are going good because I AM taking the meds and they get bad again when I dont...but I still do it anyway....Why? Im I the only one here that does that or am I not alone... I just wanna be a "normal" mom and wife...I HATE HATE HATE having to take all the meds. I just feel like maybe "this" time it will go away....but thus far its not.