Thanks for your replies.

Stopdog: I think I have been feeling low for a couple of weeks now, actually maybe the loss of interest started to kick in after my last really hard session with T - maybe I have put the barriers back up?

Sunrise: I'm not sure if it feels stale or fresh - I find it so hard to be open with T - but maybe I am just fed up going and trying to be open and constantly failing.

3rdtimesthe charm: yes I have kids, my 7 year old is already going through the "I am bored" phase! But I think mabe it is interesting for me to try to look deeper at what it is I actually mean - i.e. what is boredom? And yes maybe this is about things I don't want to work on, or find too difficult.

Readytostop: Yes I have had the really fearful times there with T, learnt some strategies to deal with the anxiety, disconnection. I have exhausted all the reading and now I am thinking back to a post of Skysblue - where I said it is about feelings - I think that is all that is left for me to explore and for me it is the really scarey stuff. The memories are in the past and although, difficult for me to talk about, those feelings in real time and the really deep / hard part - so maybe my boredom is a real feeling in relation to strategies / theory, been there done it and it is they are now boring me - maybe time to be brave and turn to the over stuff.