Oh, don't get me started on the fantasies lol. They've veered lately to using some non-polite words and illustrative hand gestures as I call out her behavior. That's why I've been mulling over what to do, because it's just going to fester inside if I don't. But that would be fun, along with "Name, it's me, Debbie!! Fancy meeting you here! It has been a long time!"

Other times I muse how each of us have a failure from their past sitting in the same room. She failed to help me and I failed to be able to accept her help. But I just view it as she was unable to present her help in a way I could take it and I was not in a place where I could accept that help. Nobody's "fault.". But she's one of my biggest regrets in life. She's the only therapist ever to dump me, I've dumped the other forty or so therapists. But it took my dad dying and my whole being being destroyed so to speak for me to start building myself back up. So current therapist is working partly because she's great and partly because I've made changes to make it work.